Joining the gym was put on hold today after I had arranged to drop in to visit my Dad straight after work, then my Nan. First though I had headed home to put some stuff in the freezer then passed by Just Meat to buy some chicken. I will go and get sorted at the gym tomorrow.

I was a bit low at lunch which meant I had a roll whilst preparing the meal. I enjoyed it. I had a friend around in the evening to play FIFA and we enjoyed a burger. I refrained from chips though! I’m joining the gym tomorrow and starting a month of kicking ass. I’ve stagnated this month but it’s time to get to work again with tight readings and execution. My tough times are behind me and every day will be better from now on.

I was at Football in the afternoon. A terribly stressful day for a number of reasons. Enough said.

A busy day featuring a good gym session.

Today I represented Durham County Council at the North East Combined Authority (NECA) Overview and Scrutiny Management Board and arrived at the Gateshead Civic Centre at 10am. The meeting lasted until 12pm then I drove back to work. I arrived at 1pm and had lunch at that point so it was a little late. I snacked on crisps and a kit kat to keep me going.

Tea was chicken in a baguette. I admit I treated myself today because a relationship ended and I felt (and feel) very depressed. This is a challenge from a food perspective as this was when I turned to food in the past as a ‘pick-me-up’.

It was a busy day today with full council then licensing at 1.30pm. I enjoyed a different lunch, eating rice with chicken from the canteen. It was really nice and healthy too. I was a bit low as I got home late but my adjustment was not bad. My reading was slightly higher going to bed as insulin still working inside me until about 12.30pm but I took that into account when adjusting the glargine.

After my speculation adjusting the night before I was pleased to wake up bang on at 5.5 this morning. I arranged to meet a friend after work so did not test at 12 but ate a banana to keep me going. A naughty lunch followed and late too. This always complicates things.

What I cannot do, however, is explain the weird night reading. I ate two bacon rolls with no sauce (sauce has sugar in) and from 6.7 I took the correct amount of insulin. I ate slightly later, but the 11.7 is weird. Adjustment made.

I had a standard day in terms of food and ate my normal lunch after Labour group, which was a long meeting. I had my normal tea but over-compensated and I don’t honestly remember why. Anyway, 4.8 was a nightmare before bed and it forced me to eat. Fortunately I know that a roll increases sugar levels by about 3.0 so I predicted that would get me to 7.8 which would normally be 32 units of glargine but I adjusted to 28 to be on the safe side.

A typical Sunday where the only “drama” was that I got extremely hungry by 10pm, I think because I ate at 5pm instead of 6pm. It reinforces the importance of sticking to the plan and waiting to eat until 6pm.

I arranged to meet a friend at 10am, but had breakfast in two parts. Because I’d eaten I only had a chicken breast for lunch and therefore had my lunch insulin then. This rendered having a test at lunch inaccurate as it was technically 2 hours after food. So that is the reason the reading is different.

I find social engagements mean changes to my normal insulin and food routine. This is not a bad thing, but it means making good food choices where temptation is always present and as I eat where I’ve eaten before, invariably poor choices (tasty choices of course) were made in the past.

Back to today, from tea things were back to normal. I was pleased with my adjustment from tea to bed which was within tolerable ranges and meant I did the calculation right.

I did consider deleting this blog but I will continue. Instead of struggling with errors I will endeavour to get back on track. My biggest problem at the moment is a mental block around losing weight. I seem to feel, inadvertently, that I have reached my limit. This is not true. I must get back to succeeding again, failure is more normal to me.

A string of personal issues has led to me indulging a bit on food. I’ve a lot of uncertainty in my life at the moment, hence a bit of a lull in my discipline. There is no excuse, but there it is.

My lunch indiscretion caused the rest of the day to go wrong. It’s a good reminder to keep that discipline. I need to do better and I will, although I’m conscious I keep saying this.

I’m struggling to keep the blog going. Let me know if you read it. Again, it’s proving a struggle across the board at the moment.

19 years ago today I started University. That’s all I want to say today. I struggled in regards to food. Determined to be a saint tomorrow.

Today I had a hearing at Spennymoor and it was a three and a half hour marathon. This meant I could not test at lunch but I was able to understand where I was. I ate alright today.

I will be changing up the blog as of 1st October. I’m not sure into what, but I want to focus more on diet and fitness rather than just sugar readings. It may evolve in that direction.

I had a much better day today with my food. I got lunch right, avoided snacks and generally felt more in control. I struggled whilst waiting to eat tea then had a nice tea, albeit with 2 rolls which I will fix tomorrow. All in all it was a much better effort and got myself back on track.

The improvement came from waking up early and really focusing on preparing my tea for the evening so come 5.30pm I lit the stove and began to cook with everything ready.